July 5th, 2000

It’s funny how certain things in life stay with you forever. Although your exact recollection of it may fade, coz memories fade, pictures and journals remind you of exactly what happened. I know there are some things I’ve done before that aren’t perfect, but looking back I realize that if a similar situation ever comes again, I learned from my mistake and will hopefully do it right this time around.

Neat Thoughts

How do you see a glass of water filled only to its midpoint? Half-full or half-empty? Are you an optimistic or a pessimistic person? Your attitudes about just anything will certainly determine if you go about life happy or just ungrateful.

I am thankful for…

…the mess to clean up after a party because it means I have been surrounded by friends,
…the taxes I pay because it means that I have income,
…the clothes that fit a little too snug because it means I have enough to eat,
…my shadow who watches me work because it means I am out in the sunshine,
…the spot I find at the far end of the parking lot because it means I am capable of walking,
…all the complaining I hear about our government because it means we have freedom of speech,
…that lady behind me at work who complains constantly because it means that I can hear,
…the piles of laundry and ironing because it means my loved ones are nearby,
…the lawn that needs mowing, windows that need cleaning and gutters that need fixing because it means I have a home,
…my huge heating bill because it means that I am warm,
…weariness and aching muscles at the end of the day because it means that I have been productive,
…and the alarm that goes off in the early morning hours because it means that I am alive.

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Take a few minutes and read these and think about them without going on to the next one; they do make you feel good…

• Falling in love
• Laughing so hard your face hurts
• A hot shower
• No lines at the mall
• A perfect parking space
• A special glance
• Getting mail
• Getting your first real e-mail
• Taking a drive on a pretty road
• Hearing your favorite song on the radio
• Lying in bed listening to the rain outside
• Hot towels out of the dryer
• Finding out that the sweater you want is on sale for half price
• Chocolate milkshakes (or vanilla!)
• A long distance phone call
• A bubble bath
• Giggling
• A good conversation
• The beach
• Finding a $20 bill in your coat from last winter
• Laughing at yourself
• Midnight phone calls that last for hours
• Running through sprinklers
• Laughing for absolutely no reason at all
• Running into an old friend and realizing that some things(good or bad) never change
• Realizing that true love begins as good friends
• Discovering that love is unconditional and stronger than time
• Riding the best roller coasters over and over
• Hugging the person you love
• Having someone tell you that you’re beautiful
• Friends
• Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you
• Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep
• Playing with a new puppy
• Late night talks with your roommate that keep you from sleeping
• Having someone play with your hair
• Sweet dreams
• Hot chocolate
• Swinging on swings
• Watching a good movie cuddled up on a couch with someone you love
• Wrapping presents under the Christmas tree while listening to Christmas tunes and eating cookies and drinking eggnog
• Song lyrics printed inside your new CD so you can sing along without feeling stupid
• Going to a really good concert
• Getting butterflies in your stomach every time you see that one person
• Winning a really competitive game
• Making chocolate chip cookies
• Having someone bake homemade cookies for you
• Seeing smiles and hearing laughter from your friends
• Holding hands with someone you care about
• Watching the expression on someone’s face as they open a much-desired present from you!
• Watching the sunrise

June 18th, 2000 – II

Wanna Play?

I finally finished the “Wanna Play” logo. What do you think? =)

I think I’m just gonna add my random thoughts to this webpage. In life there aren’t a lot of ways in which we can voice our opinions for everybody to hear. The internet is a great way for people to let other people know what they think and feel. I decided to add this because I was thinking how people don’t truly appreciate something until they lose it. We always have something in the palm of our hands, but we take advantage of it instead of treasure it, and finally, it’s gone and we regret. Why not just cherish it and try to keep it there in the first place? I’m sure you all have something like this happen to you. Well, that’s my random thought for today.

June 18th, 2000

I have decided to add some video game related material to this website. As of right now I only want to do stuff related to the Sega Master System, but if I ever completely cover all that I want to cover, I may expand it to Sega Genesis and Super Nintendo. These are some lofty goals, so I will concentrate only on the SMS for now. Look for an update in the coming days.

Crush

I see you everyday,
That smile on your face,
Every time you walk my way,
My heart starts to pace,

I know I’m in luck
But my body won’t listen,
Standing here dumbstruck,
I see the chance I’m missin’,

Your hair so fair and you standing there,
I can’t walk and I can’t talk but at least I can stare,
You notice me staring and turn your eyes away,
Little do you know that you’ve just made my day,

To be able to hold you in my arms, I wish,
To be able to say goodnight, and kiss,
To approach you and talk to you, I’m shy,
To be a coward and stand where I am, I ask myself why?

It’s alright though I’ll see you again,
I’ll work on my courage and ask you out then,
But for now I’ll sit here patiently with no rush,
Waiting for the next time I see my crush.

No title for now

(Try reading out loud)

I lay down in my bed,
And try to close my eyes,
But pictures of you in my head,
I look up at the sky…

The sky so dark with a bright shiny moon,
How I wish to be, to be with you soon,
I never knew I’d feel like this,
Never knew you’d be the one I miss,
Now that you’re gone I’ll never sleep,
I try not to cry but I can’t help but weep,

When you were here I never cared,
When you went away I wasn’t prepared,
I wish I could tell you the feelings in my heart,
Why is it that I can only tell you when we’re apart,
That you’re the one I’ll want forever,
That you’re the one I’ll always treasure,

In the end I know that it’s too late,
That I squandered my chance and sealed my fate,
I regret what I’ve done and I want you to know,
I want you to know that I’m sorry so.

No title

Thinkin’ bout the times we had,
Makes me feel all lonely and sad,
Thinkin’ of a wish that I could make,
I think of a wish to make my heart unbreak.

As I sit here alone, the candle burning bright,
My mind recalls your touching light,
You and me we made it right,
Together again, I wish we might.

Away you went leaving me alone,
We never reaped the seeds we’d sown,
Our love it wilted like a dying flower,
The pain in my heart grows more with each hour.

It’s too late now forever you’re gone,
Somehow I know I’ll have to go on,
And yet I feel a tug at my heart,
For I never thought that we would part.

Our Second Poem

We broke up, thinking it was right,
Then tell me why I can’t sleep at night,
I thought we’d be better being apart,
But now I can feel it in my heart,

It keeps tugging at me to tell you,
That you’re on my mind and I miss you,
But I don’t and I can’t coz I fear what will happen,
We’ll fight and we’ll argue and I’ll be saddened,

Not like I’m not already sad,
I just sit here and think of what we had,
I want to cry and expunge my sorrow,
Maybe I’ll feel better come tomorrow,

But if I see you then I know,
That the pain in my heart will even more grow,
Coz I know it’s you I really want,
And it hurts imagining how you no longer want,

Me my love my heart nor my affection,
I know I tried too hard to gain perfection,
I wish you’d tell me that you forgive me,
And that you too wish you could be back with me,

But I don’t know how to end this rhyme,
I could go on ’til the end of time,
About how I miss my baby and her touch,
And how I love her oh so much,
I’ll break the trend and add more lines,
And finish this poem with a great big sigh.

*siGh*