My name is Jonathan Young, a 39-year-old human who fears getting old. I do not want to forget all the things that I’ve done in my life up until this point, the kind of things that I think about and bring me comfort late at night when I am in bed, unable to sleep.

As I approach 40 years on this planet Earth, I fear that more and more memories will fade into oblivion unless I somehow record them. Looking at the size of cosmic history, I am but a microscopic speck of a speck of a speck of dust, yet my memories and experiences are so precious to me. They make up who I am. The day that I lose awareness of them is the day that I will no longer be me.

This site is a repository of a small number of things that I have done in my life that I wouldn’t mind sharing with the world. It’s a site that’s been around in one form or another since 1996. Its objectives have changed as I myself have grown and changed. Who knows what the objective may become in another year, or five, or ten?

Regardless of what happens, I’m glad you’re able to join me for this part of the ride. Thank you for visiting, and enjoy your stay.

Jonathan Young
March 3, 2018

An archive of previous welcomes can be found here.

4 thoughts on “Greetings…

  1. Jonathan,

    Don’t know if you’re currently in Hong Kong or the US (I’m based in the former), but I was looking for a computer repair serviceman when I came across your site.

    I was moved to write to you because I was alternately amused and charmed by some of your posts under your Personal Development section. That you can be so observant of things, and so honest about your thoughts and feelings — including your inhibitions and hangups — in relation to those things, is remarkable, indeed. Needless to emphasise, I can relate with you a hundred percent. Your being an introvert, sentimental, prone to depression and burnout, idealistic to the point of naivety…. if you weren’t a basketball enthusiast and a techie, I might have wondered if you were describing some of MY experiences in life!

    But here’s the rub, mate: I’m older than you (was born in the mid-60s), have been out of circulation (ie jobless) more frequently and for longer periods than you have, and many times still find myself feeling the same way as you describe in the abovementioned posts! Does that make me (or our personality type) hopeless? I certainly hope not. LOL.

    Truth be told, I’m learning. It’s not easy, though. And often I wish I’d learn faster and more indelibly, so I can come to the point where I genuinely feel my life has ‘started’; that I’m no ‘failure to launch’. (By the way, I hope you don’t take that as an insinuation about you, because that’s really just how I sometimes feel about myself.) Thank God, however, I have a brain; a ‘periscopic’ eye that manages to rise above the minutiae of everyday goings-on and see quite clearly, if slowly, how I tend to ‘get in my own way’, so to speak. Whilst I may not yet have been able to put my daily life in full throttle, I have at least been able to distil my experiences both major and minor to arrive at some valuable life lessons. Allow me, then, if you will, to share with you just a few observations which I hope might be of some benefit to you, especially as you still have the advantage of being a few years younger than I:

    1) People like ‘us’ (if there’s such a category) tend to second-guess ourselves a lot. But we don’t mean to do that, I know. We’re only being analytical, so that we can be sure we’ve arrived at the right / perfect decision or judgement about something. Unfortunately, that can also mean….

    2) We get ‘anal’. Motivated by a desire to do good, as it were, we go to great lengths to think through things, to get it simply ‘right’…. even when at the back of our mind we know that sometimes, no, often, what we think is right is not necessarily a shared belief.

    3) We’re not street-smart. We see it in others, we understand it, and we try to practise it in our bid to get ahead in the world, but it’s never comes to us as easily or naturally as with others, and is most certainly not the prime virtue most people associate with us.

    4) Psychologists, smarter friends and even not-so-smart friends have suggested the core reason for our procrastination in matters of ‘life importance’, even our general ineptitude in spite of our intrinsic brilliance, is self-esteem issues. But we protest, because on the surface we get along very well with others, we’ve even been quite popular at some point in our life, and, hey, we know first-hand what it means to be ‘the life of the party’. Then again, we are aware of the chasm between ‘us’ and ‘others’.

    [Speaking of psychological hurdles, I am only just emerging from decades of ‘suffering’ from multiple OCDs, on the mental (as in thought processes) as well as the physical (as in personal habits) levels. I enclose the word ‘suffering’ in quotes because I know I used to justify to myself those crippling patterns of thought and behavior, and thereby ended up only reinforcing them.]

    5) We’re long on patience, analysis, kindness, analysis, sincerity, analysis… but short on discipline. Even when we know what exactly needs to be done. (Damn!)

    6) Ultimately, right or wrong, we are left sitting on the fence. Or recording our life in words for the Internet. LOL.

    Jonathan, my apologies if I’ve assumed too much, or characterised our personality type unfairly, or unwittingly offended you. Your posts only prompted me to reflect on myself, and use your musings as a sort of sounding board off which to bounce some ‘self-reminders’. And for that, I am grateful to you.


    PS Just in case you’re in Hong Kong and available to help restore my corrupted pst files, do let me know so you can come by…. and I’ll pay you in blessings and beer. 🙂

    • Sam,

      Wow, thank you for taking the time to leave such a heartfelt comment. I, too, am prompted to reflect on myself after reading it, and I shall leave it here for others (especially those out there who are like “us”) to reflect upon.

      I don’t think that we are necessarily hopeless; different, yes, and possibly unwilling to conform to society’s norms (at least some, if not all) despite our understanding of them (as you sort of alluded to), and our understanding of why others choose to follow them. Based on such norms, we may seem hopeless, but I just see myself as living my life the way I want to, being free to make mistakes along the way and learning from them. While it may make life seem difficult at times, I am always glad at the end of each trial and tribulation having done it my way. There are times when I feel sorry for as well as envy those who follow a path that someone else set out for them. But hey, if the path (no matter what it might be) feels right, you have to take it.

      Best of luck to you as you look for your answers. I’ll keep your points in mind as I look for mine. Thank you and take care.

      Jonathan Young

      P.S. If you feel like it, please feel free to describe what the problem with the PST files is. I’m no longer in HK but I might be able to you point you in the right direction!

  2. Good day Joyojc. I am a random stranger from the Internet who has just stumbled upon your website by watching a Zillion video you made a while ago. Here’s a thing: even though I’m not usually the most emotional person, looking through some of the posts here made my heart sink. I don’t really know what exactly kept me feel invested after reading these, maybe just me being a huge sucker for nostalgia… but the fact of you being online for such a long period of time and having an awesome diary of sorts inspires me. Here’s a thing: I has just been enrolled into one of the most well-known universities of my country, and in a couple of weeks I feel like my adult life of new relationships, big questions and searches for what truly matters will begin. Your archive of notes regarding your travels, past experiences and, mostly important, thoughts on human’s life makes me, to be honest, really depressed about what’s to come for me. I’m not the most handsome or sociable person out there (I’ve spent last week by mostly staying home, watching YouTube and playing Wii), but I’m gonna try to live my days to the most enjoyable – that’s kind of the gist I got from your posts. From a teenager’s prospective, all the stuff you’ve come through seems like a kaleidoscope of wonderful but frightening, bright but dark memories, every one of which plays a huge role overall. But what do I do myself about my life? What will it be like?

    Some useless things about me: I’m from Russia, 18 y. o., gay (I’m mentioning this just to show what type of people you can come across online). In the end, what does matter is that I’m a random stranger from the Internet who has just stumbled upon your website by watching a Zillion video you made a while ago, and that for a moment you made me feel happy.

    • Good day, Andrey. Thank you very much for your feedback. I appreciate your perspective on my posts.

      On the matter of perspective, I realize that my posts can be depressing, but fortunately at the same time you understood my gist which is to make the most of what you have and enjoy it while you can. Life itself is the most precious gift, and the beauty of being human is that you can be depressed, happy, and a whole bunch of other emotions simultaneously. There is no right or wrong answer.

      You are now 18 and will be entering some of the best years of your life. I hope you make the best of it, and by that I don’t mean what other people consider “best”, but what *you* consider to be best. They will not be there looking back when it’s all said and done, but you will be. Make sure you listen to yourself when you make the big choices.

      Good luck Andrey, and take care.


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