It’s one of those days where I wake up and know I have a bunch of stuff to do, but don’t want to do them. I think I’ll just play StarCraft instead…
Fack, I miss being able to just go down to Circle K and grab a VLT…
I’ve been thinking about getting old recently and thought about all the things that I do on a daily basis that would be so nice to forego if there weren’t any negative consequences. With all the outsourcing and automating in our lives these days, why can’t we outsource or automate these? It would save so much time…
- From the morning routine:
- Brushing my teeth
- Washing my face
- Washing my hair
- Styling my hair
- From the evening routine:
- Brushing my teeth
- Writing my journal
- Tracking my finances
I’ve been doing some of these things for a very long time, and they really are getting old. It would be so nice if I just woke up and my teeth were clean and my hair already styled. At the same time, these are actually worthwhile things to do and I do regret it when I don’t do them. I know because lately I have been skipping or delaying some of them. Maybe that’s why I’m writing this, to remind myself that the time I devote to these tasks is well spent.
Live long and prosper.
A conversation (monologue) I had with JC tonight. I was eating some fishy mackerel from Yoshinoya.
When I was a kid fish made me barf, and now I like fish.
Same thing with cilantro, couldn’t stand it back then.
When I was a kid I didn’t like coffee, and now I can’t get enough of it.
When I was a kid I didn’t like girls, and now I can’t get enough of them.
Then she pointed out that I didn’t like babies before either, and I said:
That’s true, I didn’t like babies before, and now they always get my attention when I see them around town. I saw one today and turned my head to make sure it was OK walking unattended near and towards a down escalator.
Kinda crazy how tastes can make a 180, but at the same time I guess I’m not a kid anymore.
When someone makes a mistake, what is your first response? Do you tell them it’s OK, they made a mistake, they’ll do better next time? Do you get pissed at them? I suppose it depends on whether or not the mistake directly affects you. But even then, deep down if you know they didn’t do it intentionally, you probably want them to get over it and feel better.
For some reason, we’re always less forgiving of ourselves than other people. When I make a mistake, I tend to berate myself for being so stupid. It’s as if we hold ourselves to a higher standard than other people.
But, why should we do this? Are we really so much better than other people? I know for a fact that I’m not. So, the next level for me is to learn to be able to treat myself the same way that I treat others when I make a mistake.
My mistake this time was letting myself get carried away with the flow, not sticking to my guns, not staying within myself. But, I have to tell myself: it’s not the end of the world, you made a mistake. You wasted some time. You felt a little stupid. You felt a little embarrassed. Stop dwelling on it and wasting even more precious time, and do better next time. Remember what’s important.
Yes, I will do better next time and stay within myself. Thank you.
Something I thought about on a recent commute:
Keeping the Ego in Check (Avoiding Overachievement)
Achieve a little success/recognition = start thinking unhealthy thoughts = better than everyone else = overachieving = stay at work later = come in earlier = checking email at home
Keeping a healthy distance, avoiding burnout.
– didn’t do it alone, lots of people helped
– although society seems to celebritize individual achievement, nobody is able to achieve anything entirely on their own
– work never ends, there will always be something to do, something to cross off
– if you’re so smart, why do you need more than 8 hours?
– lead to burnout
– marginalize other people
– thinking you’re better than other people
– wanting to one up others, us vs them attitude
Please kindly, please kindly, please kindly shut the fuck up. Seriously. Please kindly.
Those less evolved are less able to control their violent impulses, eventually succumbing and learning how to justify them. This applies to violence as well as other impulsive behaviors. Despite knowing that someday this admission may be to my detriment, I admit that I have these violent impulses as well, but I try very hard to redirect them. And why would I admit such a thing? Because I believe that keeping darkness in the dark prevents me from facing and dealing with it, giving it a chance to silently grow until it escapes, having grown into an unstoppable force.
I was walking up the stairs behind a man on his phone, playing some card game. I wanted to shove him aside or throw him down the stairs. When I’m walking on the street and the guy in front blows cigarette smoke in my face, I want to wind up and do a football tackle on him. Why do I have such impulses? It would seem that I am not the only one judging by the amount of violence in society. Is violent impulse a natural reaction to stupidity, and is stupidity the primary factor in succumbing to violent impulse?
Like the number of licks to reach the center of a Tootsie Pop, I guess the world may never know.
Change for the sake of change, that ends up breaking the system, leaving people worse off than before the change. Who comes up with these things?!?!??!