Tonight’s first scan is a Chinese-language Sega Master System brochure from around 1986, printed by Wong’s Kong King, the Sega distributor in Hong Kong at that time. As can be seen from the tape and staple holes, I also had this on my wall, but like everything else from the blue shoulder bag, it’s just been in there for the past 20 years.
In terms of historical value, this one’s must be pretty high. I’m reluctant to throw it out because like all anachronistic things, it survived a long period of time and made it to the present, something that’s neither easily done, nor repeatable.
When I was putting the other blue shoulder bag items in the recycling bag, it occurred to me that every single moment of our lives is also unique and also won’t come back once gone. So, you get to make a choice. You could either fixate on what’s gone by, filling your present moments with them, or you can focus on the present moments, truly feeling and experiencing them. Of course, if you have enough time (not sure if pun is intended or not), you can try to do both, but picking from the three choices is extremely difficult, and we probably have different desires at different stages of life. For me, right now, a big reason to bid the past goodbye is that I no longer want to be shackled by childhood, and all the unhealthy things that go along with it. JC and I were free, living our own lives, and two years ago we decided to come back “home” and have lived with our parents ever since. It’s possible that we never were truly free, since our parents’ places was like home base, and we left a lot of our stuff here. I grow increasingly tired with this situation and am maneuvering to finally break free, with nothing left behind, and nothing to come back to. We want to make our own home and experience our own moments.
The grind continues…